Sleeping doesn’t appear to be an option tonight, even tho I’d like to. The eyelids don’t seem willing to become and heavy ‘n’ such. I kinda screwed up tonight about something, so the tension about what the fuck’s gonna happen after what I said is quite prevailing. This would be good since tomorrow I will sleep as longer as possible and won’t have to be awake thinking about the possible outcome I severely fear of, but one the cons is that I have an exam of microbiology on Tuesday and I have to study. And I can’t study if an additive factor to my dizziness and uncertainty is what has happened tonight, which despite the honesty surrounding it, well, it was harsh. Sadness rules one more night, what’s more to like. I shall wait and see tho, wait and see. I’m sad.

One thing I don’t get is why communists blame those who choose not to go on strike but keep working for their own reasons, as “traitors” so they are being rejected as “filthy worms shaking hands with the Boss”. (Well, I don’t want to generalize, I was talking with one c and she told me that). The people who choose to work might not have the kind of social and fraternal consciousness on the base of which they’re being blamed of, so wouldn’t that make the accusation unstable? Especially if the first ones use the terms “objectivity/objective good” to refer to their direct goals. I just don’t see how they can defy the fact that the workers/people have different interests. I am not saying these workers are right for not daring/not taking the risk of the strike, I just can’t accept the accusation based on the terms it’s made. A.k.a terms of objectivity.